impermanence

Lament
by Herman Hesse

No permanence is ours; we are a wave
That flows to fit whatever form it finds:
Through day or night, cathedral or the cave
We pass forever, craving form that binds.

Mold after mold we fill and never rest,
We find no home where joy or grief runs deep.
We move, we are the everlasting guest.
No field nor plow is ours; we do not reap.

What God would make of us remains unknown:
He plays; we are the clay to his desire.
Plastic and mute, we neither laugh nor groan;
He kneads, but never gives us to the fire.

To stiffen to stone, to persevere!
We long forever for the right to stay.
But all that ever stays with us is fear,
And we shall never rest upon our way.

lifetime promise

sweet was the touch of your palm
sweet was your body holding mine
sweet was the kisses you stole
sweet. it was.

no honey to say
no tomorrow to wait

for a rose colored morning scene
a dreamy waltz of two escapists
or an Orpheus to save a girl
from the journey of fear

hello again Stishiela
there is nothing to fear anymore
i am holding your hand now
you are loved

a girl now live for now
not yesterday nor tomorrow
not for anybody, not for anyone
only for her own

strangers talks
empty roads
midnight walks

it is a promise
for a girl
to always be true,
always kind,
and happy.

a stranger who knows you by heart

Love after Love
by Derek Walcott

the time will come 
when, with elation 
you will greet yourself arriving 
at your own door, in your own mirror 
and each will smile at the other's welcome

and say, sit here. eat. 
you will love again the stranger who was your self
give wine. give bread. give back your heart 
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you 

all your life, whom you ignored 
for another, who knows you by heart
take down the love letters from the book shelf

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life. 

ruang putih pertama

mata, benang, pagi

lalu badan di balik selimut
bergerak menggeliat

dia terjaga dari tidur
matanya bertemu dengan mataku
tidak sengaja

sejenak tak beranjak

serepih detik

(lagu hening,
binar lembut dari jendela,
udara pagi)

lalu pergi lagi pandangnya

detik disudahi
dengan basa-basi pagi hari

_____


bolehkah aku tinggal sejenak di detik itu?
memandang benang-benang halus
di balik matamu

bermimpi yang manis-manis
lalu patah hati lagi
ketika ruang nyata merasuk kembali

benang-benang halus
apakah kamu masih punya itu?

_____

ah, mungkin hanya ilusi pagi
mungkin pikiran sedang kurang isi
atau aku terlalu sering baca fiksi

a glimpse of good winter

this is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization

it's the sound of the unlocking and the lift away

your love will be

safe with me

Bon Iver

26 Feb 2016, Sg.

learning now

she is learning now to love her hair her own eyes her bruises

happy new year.